I'm so tired.  Sometimes I can't see any direction to go.  I'm trapped under so much debt, I work in a job that I dislike, doesn't pay well and doesn't have benefits.  I constantly have bill collectors calling.  I have a hard time sitting at the computer and writing.  I read happy Snupin fics to take my mind off my life.  I'm tired of asking my parents for money.  I can't seem to get another job, no matter how hard I try.  I have a stack of bills I can't pay.  I went back on the Lexapro and the drugs don't work.  They're giving me the weird dreams and night sweats again, but I don't feel any kickstart to be myself again, like I had the first time I started taking them.

I hope something kicks me out of this funk soon.  This life I'm living right now is heartbreaking.